The Miss-ing

Feeling some kind of way today...

Although there has been a little bit of progress, there's no set time when NJ Transit train service will start back up again.  Tomorrow will make a whole week since SOS's travel to NY.

So this will just be me, missing someone special, and the top 25 which came to mind...

1.       I miss the times when you would try not to smile but I said something so funny, you had to anyway.

2.       I miss when you would meet me at the door after a long day of work.

3.       I miss the moments when you would have a hot bath ready to go, even on days when I didn't mention I needed one.

4.       I miss just being able to hold your hand.

5.       I miss the warmth of you holding me, especially at night.  Sure I have an electric heater.  Sure I can pile on extra clothes or sheets, but it just isn't the same.

6.       I miss seeing your face as you tell me you love me.

7.       I miss the joint showers and your wishing the tub was big enough for two.

8.       I miss the time and attention you give whenever you help me wash my locs.

9.       I miss your reassurance that things will be all right when it appears I’m over worrying.

10.   I miss your hugs.

11.   I miss your holding me, not just through the good times but during the times when I just need to have a massive cry.

12.   I miss your silly moments.

13.   I miss your physical strength, for my attempt to move the now non-functioning TV was pretty laughable.

14.   I miss your massages.

15.   I miss the weird exchanges between you and the cat.

16.   I miss your kisses.

17.   I miss our TV times.

18.   I miss laying in your arms.

19.   I miss your willingness to try out new things, even if it’s something you would probably never try again.

20.   I miss all the forms of intimacy.

21.   I miss your random trips to the corner store and bringing me something back, even when I didn’t ask for it.

22.   I miss your eyes.

23.   I miss the rare moments when you’d sing to me.

24.   I miss when you’d write to me.

25.   I just miss you.

Space is Deafening....

It's been a while since I've had the apartment to myself.  Lately, I've been feeling like I've needed the space, like I've been suffocated.  Plus, since there had been a tiny bit of tension with SOS and myself, this space seemed to come right on time.

Hoboken, NJ

Atlantic City, NJ

 
There were hints to how bad Hurricane Sandy was going to be, but I don't think people really believed that it was going to be as bad as it turned out.  I consider myself to be very lucky, for the lights didn't go out and there wasn't a lot of flooding in the area I was in.  There was a lot of debris and branches knocked down, but it was nothing like the other areas which were affected.

The space has turned out longer than anticipated.

NJ Transit (Hoboken Station)

NY Subway 

Both the NY subway system and the NJ Transit system has given no definite dates as to when they will reopen.  So, SOS is stuck out in NY for the time being.

Even if he's able to catch the bus to get to NY Penn Station, there's still no way for him to get to NJ.

The first couple of days was nice to have that alone time.  But when the winds started getting stronger and the lights were flickering, I wished SOS would have been beside me.  I miss SOS a great deal and will just pray for the day he will be able to return.

Peace.