Day 26: The Day Someone Left and Never Came Back (not death related)
May 19, 2008.
I had the morning shift at the restaurant job. Mondays are normally pretty slow. I was hoping to get out somewhat early because I had some errands to run. I would actually have time to cook. I still hadn't gotten adjusted to cooking just for myself. I still wanted to be considerate, despite the situation.
I got into the house a little bit after seven. I put down the bags. I decided I wanted to get on the computer just before I started cooking.
I noticed the computer screen was different. Microsoft Word was open. I was trying to remember if I had been writing or working on a blog entry the night before. I recalled that I wasn't.
Then, I noticed the correspondence was addressed to me. It was only half a page, but it was to the point.
I found it funny the typed letter was “hard to write.” I just felt like if it was so hard, M could have waited until I got there and told me to my face that after about five and a half years our relationship was over.
Yes, I still would have been angry, but I would have had more respect for M. The way everything was done, I felt, was quite cowardly.
That day, I knew why a female would get tempted to slash someone else’s tires. I had thoughts about it; it kind of frightened me.
Even when my breakups ended badly, I never had that desire rise up. Only exception was my abusive ex-fiancé’.
This was when I ultimately decided I needed a break from relationships. I no longer felt joy when thinking of one. I needed to work on myself and have time to myself.
Day 26, that’s a wrap!